Starting Over

Okay, so more than a year has passed and I still have no clue how to answer the simple question “Now What?” After 10 years of eldercare and daily interaction with my parents through the veil of dementia and the infirmity of old age, I’ve lost all connection with the person that I was before [...]

Taking A Walk

I decided to take a walk this morning, even though the weather was threatening.  I was thinking about dad. One of the last things that he could really take pleasure in was taking a walk through the neighborhood. I was remembering him as I walked our familiar route.

On the walk, with the cold spring wind [...]

Moving On

Dad died on November 12th, 2010.  The last five months have been a blur for me.  I can’t imagine that it is uncommon for caregivers to experience a period of “wandering”.  I’m 52 years old and have been entirely focused on caring for my parents for the last 10 years.

Now what?

I’m living in a house [...]

Why Am I Alive?

I know my father.  The question is bait.  “Why don’t I just die?”  “What can I do?”  He doesn’t really ask the question out of any kind of search for an answer for himself. It isn’t an esoteric question about the meaning of life.  From my father, the question is mostly a way to start [...]

A Roller Coaster

It took about ten days from the onset for Dad to get back to what has been normal for him.  The episodic nature of certain of his symptoms is very disconcerting since it is so difficult to figure out what if anything triggers the more extreme episodes which include hallucinations and severe delusions and disorientation [...]